Monday, April 11, 2011

For Those Who Don't know....

Monday the 28th, I was arrested for Theft and Trafficking of Stolen Goods.  I spent the night in jail [not something I'd really like to do again.]

I only told 4 people online about this, because at the time I just... Didn't know what all was going on in my life.

I stole items from customers at work.  I then sold some of those items, or used them.

Today I had my Arraignment today, where I found out that no charges have been filed against me, as of yet. [[As I stated in the previous post.]]

I'm sharing with more people know, because while I am ashamed and regretful of what I've done, hiding it away isn't good.



Dad and I have decided that I'm going to look for a job, part time and pretty much anything I can get that will keep me out of a 'dangerous' location.  By this, we mean no retail of any kind, customer service where I'm dealing with property.  Manual Labor will most likely be my future for a bit.  Part time.  I'll be starting up school I think, unless things change and I am charged.

I have put my future in Gods hands fully now.  I'm looking for counseling as well, as it's obvious that I do have some issues that I can't work out on my own, nor should I.

I will be going to the gym as well, and dad and I are going to work on changing our eating habits.  No idea if I'll be updating this too often, but I think I might try.

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No charges have been filed... yet. While I might hope this means its done, chances are it just means they're digging deeper and looking for more.

My life is still not my own at this point.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Night before

I don't know what tomorrow holds for me. I know the things I've done deserve little forgiveness. I know I'm scared of what I believe should happen, because I see that each time I've said I was changing, I had my fingers crossed.

I know that my future is in God's hands, because I can do this without him.

I love you my Lord, Abba Father.